First off, welcome to my new Artist in Wonderland blog! It’s like the old one but better… with a darker look. (Seriously, I was getting sick of looking at rainbow colors when my mood is anything but.) I’ve made several improvements to the blog and will continue to do so. I migrated most of the content from the old blog that I wanted to keep and deleted the entire old blog off the net after downloading an offline backup. This new blog is at a new, different address. Please update your bookmarks, although I did setup a redirect from the old address so you don’t really have to. The new URL is aiw.d9s.co.
So why do all of this? I’m currently in the midst of a depression episode and I’m trying my damndest to get out of it with every trick I can think of. I’ve been trying increasing my physical activity (since that is often recommended) by going on a spring cleaning marathon (more on that in Project Spring Clean post). I’ve also been trying to lose myself in various fantasy worlds whether they be via TV (I got a Disney+ subscription so I can watch all those Marvel and Star Wars shows I’ve been wanting to see and hearing so much about) or by playing beloved video games. I have to be careful with the video games though as I sometimes become an obsessive gamer. I may write a bit more about that another time. I’m also trying to eat a little better; I gave up soda completely and started eating Greek yogurt as a snack. Hey, it’s a start! I’ve also got my windows open for some fresh air now that the weather is nice and I sit outside with the doggies for some extra sunshine.
Restarting this personal blog is also part of my self-helping therapy. Creating websites is something I enjoy so I created this one thinking that would help my mood. I also find blogging to be therapeutic (or at least I use to so maybe I will again; it’s worth trying at least). It mainly just gave me something to do and focus on which is better than crying and oversleeping, I assume. While working on this new blog, I noticed it has restarted my interest in my Funko Pops collection (for better or for worse depending on your perspective since I’ve been buying new Pops) and it made me think a little bit about getting back to my art. I have, however, since remembered why I took an extended break from it so I’ll have to give that some more thought. I do recall being overall happier when I was an artist creating artworks though…
This current depressive episode hit me all of a sudden at the beginning of March and I’m still trying to pull myself out of it here in the beginning of April. I’ve restarted talking to my councilor every other week and that seems to help. My psych doctor tried increasing one of my meds but that did nothing. I was supposed to talk to her again about changing my meds again last week but she was unavailable. Hopefully she’ll be able to keep the appointment I have with her this week. I really, really hope so because I need out of this episode badly and I’m not doing well enough on my own even though I’m trying as hard as I can with everything that I can think of.
I’ve had to take a mental health break from my Sims stuff over at Simularity. Thankfully, most of my fans are understanding and supportive and have sent me messages of support and have told me to take my time getting back on my feet. I even got two new patrons on Patreon even though I haven’t released any new mods since early last month. It’s all making me cry happy tears and actually feel loved.
That’s all for now. I need to do… something. I don’t know what yet but I’ll figure something out. I guess. I did write a to do list so I can always look at that and see what there is that to do. Until next time!